what u have changed?

Time flies a brand new year just near the corner. It’s time to review what you have achieved this year? What you have learned in this year? And what have you change this year?

For me, this year definitely not a good year for me (my dearest friend, I’m not trying to be negative, just that happy that the bad year going soon and the new year coming, cross my finger and wish deeply in heart, hope I have a better year coming. Ya as usual, as I said, the more you think, the more you will get it…) I still believe that anything happen for a reason, when you lost the things you like the most maybe the god want you to learn how to appreciate. And as always you will only realize when u really lost it. Somehow human just lack of sensitive towards to the peoples, things that u really like the most, when you have it you will never realize how important and how much influence to you.

And the influence is that something really small, tiny and even u didn’t realized, in the way of thinking, the way of talking, the way of doing something. When you with someone long enough you will definitely being influence by them. This might be there for a time and you will just keep repeating it at last become the habit, for example like your other half is a shark lover, and refused to eat shark fins. Somehow you’ll refuse to eat shark fins and become the shark lover. Or if your lover likes something spiritual thinking, maybe someday you found yourself in love with such knowledge.

Not so surprising if you see a couple have a common interest and the way the talk; think or doing something somehow just look a like. They spent lots of time to study each other, to understand each other. Definitely they have enough time to influence each other. And if you have few relationships that are mean you actually combine few people’s shadow in you. The life you live now is a combination of few peoples. Somehow when you miss some one you will remember their habit. Conclusion is actually every one of us already lost their habit. Because they are living with other’s habit. This is why when the time you broke up become so painful, at this moment only u realized that how many actually you being influenced and how much you changed in this relationship and how much you miss them when u doing the same habit with them.

Now I started forget how to be myself, and started to forget what habit actually belongs to me…..